Reflection : He Didn't Save My Past, He Saved My Future

This is a new feature that we both decided to make! With each post we do, we will have a reflection on how it impacted each other! And what better way to do this than having you, the reader, hear our thoughts on each others post! Since Ashley posted first, I'm going to give my views and thoughts on what was said! This is purely how it made me feel deep down!

How did it make me feel?

Reading the first part of the post, it made me feel sad and worried. I knew Ashley was suicidal and was considering various ways to do it, it does hit home a lot. By some miracle her family been there for her on the off chance was a saving grace. Divine intervention somehow came in and put a stop to her plan which for me is amazing! Sometimes we have to be glad that not all our plans workout! Hearing how Ben could see something was wrong with her, that for me is a very important part. Ben felt something was wrong and rightfully asked the question "Why are you so anxious?" For me, this was a case of Ashley's mask breaking off her face more and more without able to hide her true feeling. That has a huge impact on the situation at hand and made her delay her plans again. 

Did this post have a impact on you?

Massively had a great impact on me! This gave me more insight on what she was feeling and going through! Again, the part where Ben asked the question might of actually saved her a lot more than we realise! Without going too much into of an alternative universe scenario, I do wonder what would of happen if Ben didn't pick up on her feelings. Either way, Ben played a role and help keep her going. I really do owe Ben a lot of thanks and shows how important he is to her. When I was introduced into the story, now knowing the reason for the delay in response, it make sense. I replied to her post and waited about about 20 minutes for a reply and thought okay, no reply, no interest. But now reading how she was looking to try and save me as well... That has a huge impact on me. Another part was remembering how we asked each other questions. For me, its a case of feeling out to see if they are a good person or not and can be one the same frequency. The poems really did hit hard as well but I'll go more into that later.

Final thoughts

I'm really grateful Ashley was able to open up and say how everything impacted her because it gives me a better insight on things. While my writing style is different, I appreciate her bringing a lot of warmth and feeling to it all. I'm still very grateful that I was able to talk to her and save her. However, I also feel Ben deserves some of the credit as well since he was able to pick up on her feelings. Reading where she was thinking of her final act, knowing how it would impact everyone badly... All of these things make me feel so much more glad that she is still standing today.

Sharing poetry together that speaks from our hearts drew me in to her more. As many people may think looks matter, in this case for me, it really didn't. We sometimes forget that the beauty of our souls are the beautiful things in life. And yes, Ashley is very beautiful to look at as well in case you're wondering! I wanted to know more about her and developed a great hunger of knowledge from her. Her approach was different and for me that was what kept me going. So as much as she says, I saved her future, she also saved mine. With tomorrow been our 1st anniversary, I'm truly pleased to know that she is still here today! 

Eddie