Reflection : An Unexpected Love Story

Welcome to the second reflection post where this time, I reflect on Ashley telling the story of our first encounter!

How did it make me feel?

It's always nice to read how she felt and been open to say it. To this day, it makes me cry knowing how she is always there for me. Whenever she talks, I listen to her because I don't want her to feel judged. She deserves to feel valued and at times I don't feel like I do an good enough job at that. Me listening to her was one of the most important things because Ashley can say a lot. I know how it feels to be cut off or not been able to talk, so this is another reason why I let her say what she says. Of course there is times I want to say something and cut her off but... Deep down I'm very scared to due to past traumas. 

While she was just focusing on surviving, I was doing the same as well. But somehow... The string that was cut off from me, keep wanting to connect to her. When it finally did... I realised that our first conversation wasn't by accident, but something that was needed to happen. To this day, she is my lifeline and I can never stop loving her for it. When I said to Ashley keep moving, I meant it. She was feeling that she couldn't be her, but somehow, in the mist of it all, she became the beautiful angel that I saw in front of me.

Did this post have a impact on you?

The post really hits hard on an number of subjects. One that  does is when she mentions how me saying "Keep moving". This was an echo of advice I was given years ago from an important family. What the family member told me isn't the same way but it gave me the spark I needed. There is a phrase called "Pay it forward" which is pretty much what I felt I was doing. I was paying forward the helpful advice I was given. Knowing that is now her mantra is beautiful to hear. I never thought that my words would impact her as much. Reading this has made me very emotional and touched. I can't describe the feelings it gave me but its a case of beautiful and happy feelings. Another part where she said, relearning to breathe is another powerful statement. With everything said, I realised how much good I helped her out.

Final thoughts

As much as I say this all the time, I will never stop loving her and I'm always grateful for seeing her how much I seen her grown. Like I said, she isn't just my lifeline, she is my everything and I can't see my life without her. Ashley explains how much I helped her, but she's also helped me in multiple ways. There isn't another woman out there that I would rather be with. When we are together, we are unstoppable and we will continue to grow stronger and stronger each and every day. The day we can drop the LD from out R will be one of the most fantastic day we will have.